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I’m Jess :) I'm 19, and welcome to my corner of the internet.

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Blackcurrant capri suns, musicals and acapella music are the way to my heart.
I like McFly, Glee, The Book of Mormon, Pentatonix and Supernatural stupid amounts & Tom Fletcher and Darren Criss are my heroes.
I'm currently living in London studying creative writing and media studies at Kingston University.

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You adorable puppy. <3

You adorable puppy. <3

Tuesday 5th July 2011, Darren Criss @ The Borderline, London- Matinee Show. 


Not Alone

Before he sang this he was saying how he’d wrote it in Italy and how it wasn’t used until a couple of years after and he can’t believe the impact that its had but until he played the first note I did not click on about which song it was. The second he played that opening note I looked at Jessica, she was crying, I was crying, Beci and Sophie who were with us were crying. He hadn’t even started singing yet. Then he did and it just got worse, there was just us stood there sobbing. At one point in the song Darren turns to look at our side and he see’s us all stood there crying and he smiles, like, I can see you, I understand, its okay. That fucking broke me, the fact that he saw and he did that, that made the connection with the song so much more real, made it seem so much more true.  Then he stood up, stopped playing the piano, looked out and started clapping and singing so strongly, I really think he had that because he wanted us to understand, he wanted us to get it. That we aren’t alone, however dark and lonely it may seem, it goes get better and he wanted us to know that.

We all have our own reasons why that song means so much to us, I do, Jess does, Beci and Sophie do, I’m sure all of you do too, standing in that room with my best friends and 2 girls I had just met that day, crying over Darren Criss singing that song will be a moment that will stay with me forever. I will never be able to explain how much that song means to me.

I will never get over the fact that yesterday I went to London to see Darren Criss perform his first ever solo UK show in a 250 capacity venue with my best friend.

Okay so these two parts, you just freaking broke me.

2 years ago · 8 notes · originally from sugaranderson

"I may just help you, but I still don&#8217;t like your face"So I happened to pause my video on this.Darren, honey, what are you doing.

"I may just help you, but I still don’t like your face"

So I happened to pause my video on this.
Darren, honey, what are you doing.

And here we have the video that I am most proud of, aside from human.

Goin Back To Hogwarts in all of its entirety.
The Borderline, London.
5th July 2011, Matinee Performance.

All I ever wanted from life was to see this live, so now my life is complete~


Darren Criss - Human @The Borderline Matinee 05/07/2011

This is my last video and it’s my favourite.  I used no zoom.  I was three feet from this perfect, perfect man.

Bonus of me and Beci freaking out.  You can hear her saying ‘Oh my god we’re so fucking close’  and then a bit of giggling.

Hands down this was the most amazing experience I’ve ever had in my life.  I idolise Darren so much and the closest I’ve ever been to his voice is on a large scale.

On his EP, which thousands of people have; on TV, that millions of people watch; on the Glee tour, which, on my date alone, had 20 000 others.  It’s always something so huge that you share with thousands or millions of others, which is not a bad thing at all.  I’m grateful that he shares his voice with the world.

BUT, hearing this was something entirely different.  There were 200 people packed into that tiny room.  And they were the only ones that ever experienced those moments that I did.  They can’t be replayed like a CD or relived like on a TV show.  They happened and now they are gone.  You can play the videos and listen to the music and look at the pictures, but NOTHING compares to the feeling of awe and the chills that I got when I was right there in the moment.

I was three feet from him in all his glory.  I got to be that close to the man I idolise more than anyone else on this planet, and hear him with no microphones or backing tracks or other singers.

Just him and a guitar.

And that is why standing there with all the new friends I made yesterday, listening to the man who brought us together in such an intimate setting is something that I will never forget as long as I live.

I’m actually sat here sobbing reading this.

This was one of those moments in life where you sit and you think to yourself “wow. Life is pretty amazing sometimes”
I can’t really add much more onto this post as Sophie has said everything that I am thinking, other than I can not think of anyone else that I would have rather have spent that gig with. some people I was with I have been best friends with for years, and others I had just met on that day. But they all made that gig so special and so incredible, and I will never forget that day because of them. & I hope that we all stay friends for a long time.
Thank you, guys. <3


Darren Criss - Not Alone @ The Borderline Matinee 05/07/2011

I would apologise for me, Jessica and Beci sobbing loudly behind the camera but I’m not gonna do that because you probably would to if he was that beautiful and singing that so close in front of your face.  :D

I will however apologise for 2:45 and the random Darren disappearing from the frame.  My tears had mixed with eye makeup and it was burning really badly, and Beci was clutching my left hand so I used my camera hand  ^_^

Yeah, I’d say that I apologize but I genuinely don’t.
Probably one of the most emotional and intense moments of my life.

Not Alone.
At The Borderline, London.
5th July 2011, Matinee Performance.

I only recorded a small bit of this because I was crying my heart out/hugging maaria beci and sophie/generally dying over the fact that darren was there so yeah~
I don’t think I can begin to explain how much this song means to me.

The Muse.
At The Borderline, London.
5th July 2011, Matinee Performance.

Still having a slight heart attack over the fact he played this, its my favourite song e v e r.

Granger Danger.
At The Borderline, London.
5th July 2011, Matinee Performance.

ksjfhskjdfhskjfhskdjfhskjh! :D

I Still Think.
At The Borderline, London.
5th July 2011, Matinee Performance.