I know it aint easy, but it aint hard trying.
I’m Jessi, I'm 17, and welcome to my corner of the internet.
This is my place to vent and rant and talk about my favourite things which include McFly, Darren Criss, Glee, Chris Colfer, Team Starkid, The Book of Mormon and various comedians.
I have a face and sometimes I post photos that can be found if you click here!
I like going to gigs and meeting people, and Tom Fletcher and Darren Criss are my heroes.
I like to keep this a positive place, and if you ever need anyone to talk to, I am always here. Remember, you’re not alone.
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My apologies for this being so long, but I needed to write this down.
I Still Think.
This was the first song he sung. We’d all been joking around earlier on about how he’d probably just walk onto the stage without any form of entrance, and that was literally what he did. He walked on stage, took a few pictures on his phone (or attempted to…) and then started playing. I’d been discussing a few weeks ago how all I wanted was to hear this song live, so I was so happy when I heard those opening notes! I spent the majority of this song like ………oh my god, its actually him. I know that sounds silly but I couldn’t believe I was there!
Jealousy.
Fucking hell is all I can say. I have never seen anything as sexy in my life! I don’t think any recording or video can ever do Darren’s talent justice, or his effect on people. I don’t know how to put it, really. Not only in jealousy but throughout the whole concert, he is just entrancing. He has this way of phrasing and doing things that just keeps you hooked.
We (meaning me, Maaria, Beci, Sophie & Lucy) spent the majority of the song going “IS THIS EVEN LEGAL?” “FUCKING HELLLL” “DARREN YOU NEED TO STOP” “IS HE HAVING SEX WITH THE MICROPHONE?” etc. He also fell to his knees at one point and I’m pretty sure my heart stopped for a split second, that boy sure knows how to kill me! & he also did alot of growling….
The Muse.
I don’t think I can express how happy I was that he sung this! :3 It is by FAR my favourite Darren song, but he never really plays it live anymore, so I was SO happy that he did. The lyrics are incredibly beautiful & it was probably one of, if not my favourite performance of the night. He played it a little differently to the recorded versions which gave the song a whole new feel & it was really good to see it in a different light.
Part Of Your World.
Darren/Disney Songs is my OTP. ;D. No matter how “big” Darren may get, no matter how much fame he may aquire, he always has been and always will be just some goober who plays disney songs. It made me so happy to see him joking around and laughing and grinning. This was also one of the first songs that I ever heard Darren sing & it was probably one of the things that made me fall in love with him & his style of music, so to see it live was pretty incredible.
Granger Danger.
AAAAAAHHHHHH! :D My favourite Starkid song of all time! I’d made it my mission of this year to see this live, so I was ecstatic that he played it! We’d been singing this song more or less all day, so it was good to finally hear the man himself singing it. I think it shocked Darren to see that there was that many starkids in the audience (aka pretty much every single person…) & the overall atmosphere during the song was so electric! I can not say enough good things about this song :3 also, Darren singing “She is the hottest girl I’ve ever seen” was incredibly sexy as always…
Beauty.
Seeing this song live gave it a whole new meaning. I know its cliche/obvious, but this is so beautiful. It really opened my eyes to alot of things, and for the most of it I was frozen in shock as it is my favourite song from Starship and he’s never performed it live. kjhskdjfhskdjfhskfh seriously just even thinking about it is making me smile so much :3 yeah, I have no coherent thoughts to say, haha!
Sami.
Wonderful as always, although some people were singing “Darren” very obnoxiously and it ruined the atmosphere slightly. Regardless, a beautiful song that is once again filled with passion & ridiculous talent.
Status Quo
He played it on piano, which I’ve never seen him do! this is my favourite song from Starship and its sort of an anthem for me; who cares about normal? ;D once again, everything was intensified in this performance. Its hard to explain unless you see darren live, he just has this charm and charisma and just ……something that pulls you in.
Teenage Dream.
Jesus christ. So firstly, it is SO obvious how much this song means to Darren. as he has said and will continue to say, this song basically made his career in a sense. He played a ballad version of it, and I have never seen anything quite as passionate before. He demonstrated more of his entrancing qualities once more as everyone was dead silent. It was so surreal to see him singing that song right infront of me. I’ve always preferred the piano version to the guitar version, so it was so nice that he did the piano version. Plus he growled during the “let you put your hands on me in my skintight jeans” line, so yanno, suppose that was good too…. ;D I think that was the moment when I realized how far he’s come. he went from singing to a camera in his bedroom and playing Harry Potter at college to touring worldwide with a groundbreaking TV show & selling out venues in other countries.
Coolest Girl.
Okay, so alot of songs effected me alot more than I thought they would, and this was one of them. Just like with Beauty, I felt this song. I’m not even sure how to explain it. I know I keep saying it, but there was just so much passion in what he was singing. He sung “I am sick and tired of low not higher” and all of a sudden, I was crying. I think I can relate to this song alot/what it means, and it really is a sort of anthem for girls like Hermione. Its such a fun to belt out & yeah, I loved this song!
Getting Along Feat. Joe Walker.
So due to previous happenings, we already knew that Joe would be there. Still didn’t make it any less incredible when Darren said “I’d like to invite one of my best friends Joe Walker onto the stage” and then JOE FUCKING WALKER WALKS ONTO THE STAGE. Seriously, what the fuck. I am firstly and foremost a starkid so for Joe Walker to be stood in front of me, that was pretty mindblowing. There was some great banter between the two and then they played Getting Along, and to say that they literally hadn’t rehearsed it was pretty epic! I don’t think Joe was expecting the reaction he got (aka fangirls going BATSHIT) so he looked pretty shocked. Yet another example of someone who loves his career.
Stutter.
I can’t say enough good things about this song. He also beatboxed in this which made me have a general reaction of DARREN YOU’RE RUINING MY LIFE. Me & Maaria were generally dancing around in this & being the idiots we generally are, & we looked to the side of the stage & Joe was laughing at us. Ooops….
Human.
This is when everything hit me.
Darren decided to sing this without a microphone or without an amp turned up on his guitar. It was purely just him and the guitar. and literally everyone was more or less silent. I can’t express how lucky I feel to have witnessed that live. To be stood within touching distance of my hero, of someone who I never dreamt of being able to see, with my best friend and people I had bonded with through our love of the man in front of us, I still can’t quite believe it. This song really, really demonstrated just how ridiculously talented Darren is. His voice has such a raw yet beautiful quality to it, and the fact that he wrote something that good at just 15 clearly shows you something.
When You Wish Upon A Star.
THIS FRICKING SONG, MAN! Once again, the audience was silent. Once again, I ended up crying without even realizing. It was so beautiful and perfect in every sense. I have nothing else to say about this as I was at a loss of words. If you get the chance, go and watch it because it really was incredible.
Goin’ Back To Hogwarts.
WORDS CAN NOT EXPLAIN HOW HAPPY I WAS TO HEAR THIS LIVE. I have spent countless hours with my best friends reciting the whole song, & seeing it live was just as immense. Once again, everyone fed off the energy of each other & it wouldn’t be a Darren show without him forgetting 90% of the lyrics… ;D also with Joe in it, it made it alot more fun! It was an amazing way to end the show!
And finally….
Not Alone.
I don’t think its really any secret that this song means so much to me. I’m not going to go into great detail, but very long story short, this song saved my life. As soon as I heard the first note, that very first piano chord, I burst out crying. I have NEVER been that bad at a concert before. There was me, Maaria, Beci & Sophie all stood together crying. I have said this earlier, but it made me realize just how much I owe Darren and how much I love him for everything he does and everything he will continue to do. During one line, he looked up and saw us all huddled together hugging and singing, and he smiled. it was just a simple smile, but it was directed at us and it just made me love him more. I can’t even put into words how intense and emotional those 4 minutes were, I don’t think I’ve ever experienced like that. He sung “I know it aint easy, but it aint hard trying” & I almost felt a weight lift off of my shoulders. I’ve been feeling increasingly more upset over the past few months due to what happened in august 09, but hearing those words just reminded me to keep going. It was so surreal. I just love him so fucking much, more than I can explain, and to see that song live, that was something I will cherish forever.
I think I saw at this gig that Darren’s true passion is music. It made me so, so, so happy to see him so immersed in what he loves. I’m not saying that he doesn’t love performing in Glee or whatever, as we all know that he does, and perhaps its only something that comes across in person, but he just looked so much more relaxed when it was just him and a guitar as to when I saw him performing as Blaine Anderson. He is such a phenomonal person. As I said earlier, he’s almost entrancing. He gives off such electricity and passion and love that radiates to every other person, and he cares so much about what he does. I could not think of a single person on this earth who deserves all of this success more than Darren does.
I am so grateful to have been one of the first people in the United Kingdom to see him perform a solo concert, and I don’t think I will ever, ever forget this gig.
